Friday 28 September 2012

Positivity Reigns....

I am saddened and upset to wake up to the news of Jill Meagher this morning.  It is a truly upsetting development in this story when we were all holding out hope for a very different ending... (you can read her story here)

I began the week on such a high.  Our business appeared on Landline on Sunday and by that evening we were up in the Daintree, connecting with nature and getting away from the busyness of our lives.  We got away from most of our technology (we were not able to get away from all of it as we still needed the check emails for orders, especially after Landline!)  and we breathed in clean, fresh, rainforest air.

It was hot and the work of building a crossover was tiring (well, Dad and Hubby did that, I mostly watched!).  We have no mains power, only generator power and gas cooking up there.  It is not a house, but rather a deck with a caravan attached on one side, a shed turned into rooms on the other side, an outdoor kitchen and dining table on the deck with a dodgy tv and some chairs. 

Life can sometimes seem hard without the comforts of home, but it was still bliss.  There is a flushing toilet and a shower, what more does a girl need?!?! 

While up there I finished reading a book called "You can create an exceptional Life" by Louise Hay & Cheryl Richardson.  If you don't know Louise L. Hay, you should get to know her.  She is the queen of positive affirmations and has transformed the lives of thousands of people with her work.  She is an inspirational lady and still going strong in her nineties!!

I was really inspired by this book.  Even more so than reading Louise's iconic "You can heal your life."

I have been practising the art of positive affirmations ever since and I am feeling a real shift in my thinking.  I now understand why affirmations have not worked for me in the past. I lacked consistency and ACTION.

It is one thing to say an affirmation every now and then, but a completely separate and different experience to practice affirmations daily, all day, in conjunction with putting yourself in the position or place to make it a reality.  It is so much more than just saying the words and hoping for the best.  You need to be aware of the signs that Life sends you to put you on to the path of creating the change or action you desire for yourself

For example, I have been affirming:
"I am energised and motivated to move more and eat only healthy foods that nourish my body."
Yesterday I received a sample of Alkalising Greens powder in the mail from a company that I had actually requested a stevia sample from.  Hint, hint!!

I am also full of energy, whereas I am normally very tired, especially as aunty flo has come to visit.  At this time of month you normally can't move me from the couch and when I get home from a trip to the farm I usually get as far as taking the bags out of the car and leaving the rest for "later".  Not this time.  I unloaded the car AND unpacked the bags, put on a load of washing, unpacked the esky and put away all the food we came back with.  I also tidied up a little bit and took out some rubbish.  This NEVER happens!

I honestly think that the affirmations are helping change the way I think and dissolving some of those limiting beliefs floating around in my head.  I am less tired and moving my body more feels easier each day.  I gave myself time to rest while up in the Daintree, and I also started to move my body more when up there, without much motivation at all (as discussed in this post).  We all know that getting started is the hard part but once you do it gets easier to keep going.  I really had to change how I was thinking and feeling about exercise.  Doing yoga in the rainforest was so inspiring and I find myself wanting to do more each day.

My DH is a sceptic.  He doesn't come out and say he doesn't believe in it, but I can tell by his face, his eyes, his body language - all of it.  His lips may be saying, 'that's great babe!" but his body is saying " here we go again"

And I get that!

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I get that it may seem to him that I am off on another self help guru ride, but for me all this is just a part of the wellness journey I am on.  It started with removing chemicals from our home and food; and has flowed on from there.  I have never taken such a holistic approach to my health both inside and out before and I am enjoying the process.

I have to say, yoga in the rainforest is pretty amazing, even with March flies buzzing about trying to take a bite!    

So, while I am saddened by the events, and for Jill Meagher's family and friends, I look to my future with such a positive outlook.  All I can do is teach my children how to be safe and how to be good people. 

I feel changes within me and I embrace them wholeheartedly.  I feel like I have a whole new strategy to deal with any bad days I may have ahead.  If that is all I get from this journey, then it's Depression-0, Jackie-1!!

Yours affirming I am safe and loved,

                          Mummy in  Disguise
                                                                  xoxo

Wednesday 19 September 2012

Queen of Procrastination...

I am seriously lacking in motivation at the moment.  To exercise. 

I keep taking my workout gear to work with me with a work out in mind for my lunchbreak but come 12pm, I just can't do it....

I sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo need to exercise as well.  I NEED to get off my butt and get moving. 

But I just can't bring myself to get up, get changed and go....

I need a workout partner to inspire me, any Cairns ladies wanna join me on the Esplanade at 12pm everyday?  I know it is the hottest part of the day but lunch time is really the only chance I get to work out.... 

I don't even feel like yoga at the moment.  I love yoga and how it makes me feel, so you would think I could revert to this as a back up, but nah, don't feel like it :(

It's not that I am tired or anything either.  I just don't want to do it.  Even though I really need to and even though I know I will feel better for it.  I would rather check my email, walk around the shops in town, read a magazine, or even work through lunch if required!

I am absolutely the Queen of Procrastination.  I come across as really organised, but in reality a lot of what I do is done last minute!  I do get a bit of a rush from that, getting it done just in time...  the stress from doing this is probably why I am holding on to the weight I need to lose, which exercise will help me do if only I felt the urge to get going...

I could just be lazy.  I am sure my husband thinks this sometimes!  Working out to lose 20kg requires hard work, committment and a vision of yourself 20kg slimmer.  Well, hard work is not motivating me at all and I am actually having trouble trying to visualise a slimmer me.  All I can see is my tummy.  Even when I look at skinny mini photos of myself from highschool, I just can't see myself that way now.  Not after two kids and all this yoyo dieting. 

I have friends who have been on amazing weight loss journeys and are truly inspiring to look at them, but then I get home and the thought of exercising actually makes me tired! 

Excuses, excuses I hear you all say.  Well, yes! I need help, stat!

So people, got any good motivation tips for me? 

Yours thinkin' bout getting up while lazily laying back,

                  Mummy in Disguise
                                                         xoxo

p.s.  Please no suggesting the gym or anything that will cost, we truly can't afford that at the moment!

Wednesday 12 September 2012

working it out...

So, it has been a month on lower dose of meds and things are looking good!

I should not have jumped to conclusions so early about it not working, but I am glad I gave myself that extra time to see how it played out.

Wednesday 5 September 2012

Normal (whatever that is!) AND grateful...

I am slowing feeling like I am getting back to normal... whatever that may be for me!!!  I actually got up early and exercised this morning - as opposed to packing stock and doing up orders!

In light of this clarity, I just wanted to take a moment to tell you a little bit about my day at Carnival on Collins on Sunday.

Monday 3 September 2012

I am just so tired...

I am feeling a tad fragile today.

I have worked my paying job as normal last week, but with the added bonus of having to catch up from the previous week's days off sick...

I have then been up early most mornings completing orders from online sales and wholesalers, as well as completing stock for the weekend's markets...